I'm really not good with goodbyes

Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. - 1 Thessalonians 4:13

Yesterday was Opa Wong's funeral service (well, technically, they had one today as well and did the burial this afternoon). It was interesting seeing GKI people after being away from that church for half a year, but everyone's still the same. Luckily, I didn't run into any young people. Is that horrible to think? I did cry a lot during the funeral - even knowing that he's in a better place and that we'll be able to meet him again in Heaven, I can't help feeling that sadness of missing him. Although he wasn't blood related at all, Opa Wong was just like a grandfather to me. You could tell how much he touched the lives of others as well through the testimonies and tributes shared at the end of the ceremony.

Being back at Oak Hill stirred up some strange feelings for me. The only other times I'd been there were for my own grandparents' funerals. What a sad reunion place - there were lots of people there that I only really see once every few years. Some guy came to greet my mom, who then told me that I was acting crazy at his wedding (I'd only been 1 at the time, but looks like I stayed true to my nature!). Then he said that we should meet at a wedding next because we always meet at a sad place, hah. Too bad you guys will have to wait a few more years I: I don't think I'll be getting married - let alone engaged - anytime soon! Stanley also asked when my turn was .. You guys do realize I'm still in school, right? ^^;

Mixed emotions yesterday, but it was nice getting to say my condolences to the family in a more formal setting. When Tante Wiwiek hugged me, she said that Opa Wong really loved me, and I got so sad. I started crying a lot again. When my dad made tribute at the end, he was saying that their family was the first they trusted to take care of me. I know they were babysitting me all the time when my mom couldn't .. And it's just so weird to think that another member of my family is gone. I'm so bad at this, even as a Christian..